c'',) silly poem to myself

I admit…
I don’t know what to do
I don’t know where to go
Or what I am willing to experience
In this lifetime
Or even why I am too scared
To even try

I admit…
I’m frightened of love
It is a fear that I have always known
Yet allowed someone to embrace
And cure… for the amount of time
That I resided in the arms
Now, the fear has overwhelmed me
As I willingly push away
Any and every chance
Of the emotion possibly growing
Inside of me again

I admit…
I’m weak.
Tears have found my eyes,
And met my cheeks
I am not strong enough.
I am not invincible.

I admit…
That my heart is locked within
And only will be allowed to see the light of day
When I allow someone
To become my sunshine.

I admit…
I am fine on my own.
I am still the person I was
When someone stood beside me
Only now… I know
I have to be whole
Before I allow someone else to take a piece of me